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posted ago by pleasehelpme ago by pleasehelpme +46 / -1

I don't have any strength in me left. The issues that have been bugging me for more than 5 years finally blew on me. At this point I'm gonna turn into a fucking druggie (that is if I don't hang myself first.) I don't want that, I don't want this, I don't want to be like this anymore. I find it hard to breathe. I haven't eaten anything for more than 4 days. I have been nonstop drinking for more than a week. I am drinking right now too. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't even want to be alive. I can't even beg to God. I want to but I just can't. I can't accept him being real. Please help me.

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DrivenBY 3 points ago +3 / -0

I think the fact that you don't like that you're drinking alcohol and not eating is a sign that you don't want to do these things and you know they're bad. Why not let that be your drive? Just live, stop doing those things, see what happens. Think about all of the people who were in really bad situations, but they got up, pressed on, moved forward, and managed to pull through and help others.

If you said you needed a drive, why not just helping others in general be your drive? It's a biblical and Christ like thing to help others. And even if they don't appreciate the help, you're still helping them and bringing them one step closer to God. You can use your experiences of going through bad times to help others get out of theirs and let them know that God is with them and forgives them of all their sin, regardless of what they're going through. And according to the Bible, our main purpose is to share Christ and His love with others, because He loves us so much, He gave His life for us. Also remember, God loves you always, even when you hate yourself, are dissapointed with yourself, and others may not like you, God loves you always. Jesus loves you so much He died for you.

If you said you need a reason to believe in Jesus, I would recommend watching inspiringphilosphy's videos. Specifically His series on the resurrection of Jesus Christ.(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ErnJF_nwBk&list=PL1mr9ZTZb3TUYymBPce08oyuhnHLLkR_B&index=2&t=0s) In terms of learning about God, I would recommend you read your Bible and use the resources given to you to learn about God, and you're not going to be perfect when you start but if you keep moving forward, God will help you and will help you grow as a better person, and will make you into who he wants you to be. Some resources I would recommend would be: GotQuestions, Adrian Rodgers sermons Billy Graham, and WWUTT. But most importantly, read your Bible: because no pastor is perfect or is going to solve every problem for you and you need to grow in God's word. (See the following vid: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HynerviUiTc)

You need to know that you're not perfect and that everyday you're going to grow into who God made you to be. So if you struggle and make mistakes, confess it to God, don't dwell on it, and move forward. You'll get there, you just need to keep walking.

I honestly don't think you should end your life. If you end your life, you're telling everyone that you're giving up and that you don't want to press on in life. You're telling God sending His only Son to die on the cross for you wasn't enough to save you from your sins and that you have to do more than that. That if you confess your sins your sins aren't forgiven, even if the Bible says that if you do confess them, they are forgiven. Accept God's grace and forgiveness, trust in him and don't reject it. Just trust in Him, His word, and receive Him. Jesus loves you.

I also want to tell you that nobody here would want you to end your life and would be devastated if you did. We’re praying for you and are hoping you’ll get better no matter what happens in your life. So know that we don’t want you to kill yourself, we want you to live. trust in Jesus and move forward. People here love you so much they want to share God’s’ love and help you.

No matter how many mistakes you make, It won't stop God from loving you. If you fall back into depression, drinking, or whatever, know that God forgave you of all of your sin when He sent His Son To die on the cross to save you from all of your sins. All you need to to is believe in Him.

"that if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved." Romans 10:9

Remember that God loves you no matter what you do, He will always forgive you if you mess up. God will always forgive you of your sins, you just need to confess it, accept His forgiveness, and move forward

Lean on Jesus, Trust in Him.

"There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according to the Spirit." Romans 8:1