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posted ago by faithfulserf ago by faithfulserf +44 / -4

this seems generic but my reasons are a little different. In the past I have had horrid experiences with them and I saw the truth of the alphabet cult right before my very young eyes. They were all debased and sick people and the last thing my family should have been doing is accompanying them let alone supporting them. Between the propoganda at school, brainwashing by parents, and the porn addiction I had at the time, I developed homosexual urges. These have been increasingly frequent as I have been through the process of nofap, which has amplified ultra nasty gay scenarios in my head. I'm posting this becuase I think one or more of you may have had a similar experience or can show me someone else who was in the same situation. I have been trying to find more of people i've seen who claim to have overcome these urges and have fixed themselves somehow. It'd be a lot of help.

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Oppy235 13 points ago +14 / -1

*handshake

*first post

*hello my fellow consume product users. Do you also get homo urges?

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faithfulserf [S] 5 points ago +6 / -1

I saw some posts about finding christ and changing for the better. I see multiple threads that dont devolve into "LOL RARTED NIGGERFAG" and get somewhere. Not this one though. Ill have to look somewhere else.

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Oppy235 4 points ago +5 / -1

Are you going through some kind of JIDF manual and are now trying to create a sense of urgency, as to make me care about whether or not you leave or stay. If you care so much about a thread not devolving into you being excessively greeted in your mothertounge, then I suggest you stop acting like such a Fedboy and I also suggest you stop using a handshake with 1 post for such discussions. Or you could just visit those threads you were talking about.

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faithfulserf [S] 0 points ago +2 / -2

I know my post glows like a full moon but im not gonna spend hours on here trying to gain the trust of autists who dont even trust each other. Besides the thread i saw help on is dead.

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Oppy235 5 points ago +5 / -0

Let's say you aren't JDIF. The only advice I can offer to you is to start developing a useful skill, a business or something off the sort. I got hooked on programming quite some time ago and I hadn't touched porn since. I've also started to connect more with Christianity.

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +2 / -0

read my response to AmericanMonarchist2 if you want personal details. What I have been doing is staying as far away as I can from open internet. I think you know why. I dont blame you for being wary but a handshake account and a suspost is the best I can do within my personal limit.

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luckyprick 1 point ago +1 / -0

I guess this is as good of a place as any... what's the handshake thing about? All my posts have them.

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hihipipi 2 points ago +2 / -0

It means your accounts are new

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luckyprick 1 point ago +1 / -0

I kinda figured but was wondering if there was something more to it. 'Preesh the assist tho!

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hihipipi 2 points ago +2 / -0

No problem, the word has a pretty negative connotation at this stage, so I understand the confusion.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +2 / -1

i think it means were jews or something

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luckyprick 1 point ago +1 / -0

Holy fucking shit I 'm a jew!

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hihipipi 1 point ago +1 / -0

It means your accounts are new

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +5 / -3

ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME, THE VERY FIRST ONE

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thenameschadgigachad 12 points ago +12 / -0

You have to admit, this is pretty gay

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faithfulserf [S] 7 points ago +7 / -0

didn't you read it? the whole point is to find the solution instead of becoming one of them.

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SFAM1A 5 points ago +5 / -0

Pray, I guess that would be where I would start. Get to church, earnestly seek God's help, and you will seldom be led astray. Get Mary and Saint Michael on the case as well; they're the demon-busters-in-chief right behind the King Himself. Your struggles are certainly conquerable; I have heard of groups of Catholic men who have homosexual tendencies (keyword: tendencies) who through a life of constant prayer and devotion remain as consecrated virgins and faithful servants of Christ. Not to bring denomination into this; but I do know you'll probably only be able to do it the Jesus way.

And you'll have to excuse some of the more ardent puritans, 99% of the time handshakes that come in here are rabble rousers so little quarter is given to them anymore.

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +3 / -1

thanks my nig. I didn't know about saint micheal. I can see why my post screams semite cause its the first post i've ever made and it's just "im gay, wat do?"

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SFAM1A 1 point ago +1 / -0

Saint Michael is God's First Lieutenant. Personally threw Satan out of heaven. Powerful ally to have in your court. Anyway, another thing I'd do is not refer to yourself as a faggot. That only legitimizes it in your mind. Refer to yourself as a recovering addict to help keep the ol' spirits up. And don't get yourself down when you fail, because you will fail at times. Just resolve to do better next time

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +2 / -0

its good to see the the help rolling in. I gotta apologize for glowing but like I said theres not another option for me.

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SFAM1A 1 point ago +1 / -0

Eh, I've pretty well learned to recognize the shills and rabble rousers differentiated from the newbies actually seeking help. Noobs don't come around very often, but they do come around every great now and again. Even just lurking can help; there's a lot of great information/motivation around here. I've personally been motivated to clean up my life for the last ~5 months because of stuff I've seen here.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

i found it while searching for soyjaks

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SFAM1A 1 point ago +1 / -0

Ironic

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yudsfpbc 5 points ago +5 / -0

Don't identify with your temptations.

Just because you are tempted to steal, or murder, or whatever, doesn't make you a thief or a murderer.

Find God and Jesus. Let them change your very essence. As you continue down the righteous path your very desires will be rewritten.

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +3 / -1

in the end we win

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AmericanMonarchist 5 points ago +5 / -0

Hello Faithfulserf, I am sorry for your rude welcoming. Many of us our suspicious of handshake accounts, and for good reason. That being said we tend to take our suspicion too far.

I'm posting this becuase I think one or more of you may have had a similar experience or can show me someone else who was in the same situation. I have been trying to find more of people i've seen who claim to have overcome these urges and have fixed themselves somehow. It'd be a lot of help.

I never had homosexual thoughts, but I have had lustful thoughts and lust is kin to homosexuality. The first thing you need to do is stop trying to stop thinking about them. It is counter productive. If I tell you "Don't think about pink elephants", what just popped into your mind? What you need to do is accept that you have these thoughts and find the underlying cause of them. Finding the underlying reason for your thoughts is something only you can do. Each person has their own reasons. I do know that pornography can cause homosexual thoughts because the mind craves novelty. We start out aroused just by naked photos, but then photos don't do it for us anymore. We need to see video so we pull up "amatuer blonde banging BF" on DegenerateVideoSite and that satiates us for a time, but soon enough we need more novelty to reach the same high. We make the jump from amateurs to pornstars with everything airbrushed to be as sexy as possible. Same problem occurs so we make the leap into gangbangs, cuckoldry, just more and more extreme videos. Some people stay hooked long enough that they cannot have a boner without really perverted fetishes.

There is a good chance that you fried your brain on heterosexual porn and now the only thing that gets you aroused is homosexuality. If this is the only cause then the EasyPeasy method will fix your problem. I doubt this is the only cause, but the method is still worth a shot and will remove one obstacle from your path.

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faithfulserf [S] 5 points ago +5 / -0

I theorize that my 8 years spent addicted to porn deep fried my mind. I wont elaborate farther than my needs got more and more extreme as I went on, leading to it getting bad enough for me to attempt nofap. I never got off to gay porn but what I watched men do to women is probably worse. This was all during my core developmental years too. Basically, i have these thoughts, but they disgust me. My biggest fear is that if I ignore it, then they will begin to do the opposite, which is why I am glowing my way through chat forums and message boards looking for solutions.

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EUssr 2 points ago +2 / -0

This was all during my core developmental years too.

I have no data to back it up, but neither does anyone else.

My best educated guess would be that kids see more neurogenesis because literally everything they experience is completely novel to them. If you found a way to expose adults to similar volumes of novel sensory input I have little doubt that they would show at least equal, if not higher, neurogenesis. Higher because they have more previous experiences to combine the new ones with. Think mathematical power sets, or exponential growth.

Either way, you can rewire yourself. It will just take similar amounts of energy to un-/rewire what you have already built up. There are ways to fast track this, like frequent prayer, meditation or psychedelics (not if you're young or unstable in any way and not without very thorough preparation).

Basically, every decision that you make programs your brain's autopilot mode. Every time you give in to the autopilot you reinforce the connections and make the autopilot impulse more intense. Every time you resist you weaken the connections. The more you resist or pivot the impulsive energy into something else the closer you will get to reprogramming yourself in whatever way you want.

If you truly want it you will do it. No doubt.

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AmericanMonarchist 2 points ago +2 / -0

That is a healthy fear to have. I will say that the EasyPeasy method is the middle ground between laissez-faire and counter productivity. I cannot go into detail since the guidebook works best when you learn along with it. I will say that it has helped many people in a similar situation overcome their mental prison. I would read along with the book while also building a post history here to get our more suspicious members amenable to help. Alternatively you can take u/sn33d's solution if he comes around to answer your question. It is extreme, but he swears by it and says that it works better than EasyPeasy. He is the nuclear option to beat lustful thoughts.

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faithfulserf [S] 3 points ago +3 / -0

bless you for you help, It seems like a different approach to something ive combated and lost to countless times. I'll consult chuck on his if i can figure out how to use this website.

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Notablitheringidiot 3 points ago +3 / -0

My friend got kissed by a faggot at a party once.

The faggot had the audacity to get offended that my friend got offended.

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +2 / -0

lmao gross

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KarenKarenKaren 3 points ago +3 / -0

Pray the Holy Rosary every time you want to Fap or have bad thoughts.

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faithfulserf [S] 3 points ago +3 / -0

I forgot how but a google search will refresh my memory. thanks karen

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SFAM1A 3 points ago +3 / -0

This Is The Way

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Captain_Raamsley 2 points ago +2 / -0

I've never had those feelings or thoughts. What I do know is that porn and fapping gives you terrible thoughts and the best way to get rid of them is to go cold turkey for as long as possible (preferably until marriage, but we all fail sometimes).

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faithfulserf [S] 0 points ago +0 / -0

Cold turkey has proven very difficult but the most rewarding. I have gotten up to a 7th day but the urges were diabolical.

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GigaVaxxed 2 points ago +2 / -0

Bruh what? You need to change your diet immediately. Get off of any pills your jew therapist prescribed to you and go to the freaking gym. This is not normal. Ew.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

It's absolutely disgusting which is why I want out.

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InversionAgenda 2 points ago +2 / -0

Our biggest enemy is our imagination. The reality is by far not as bad as how we think it is. When you think these thoughts, don't be emotional about them, don't hate yourself, but suppress them. Think about anything but yourself. If your thinking revolves too much around you, you destroy yourself.

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Pearlgamez 2 points ago +2 / -0

Look, if you're gay you're gay, but don't let it consume your personality and definitely don't be a faggot about it

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +2 / -0

no your not. You cant start packing just becuase your brain is fried. I saw it first hand and realised why the bible says to execute them.

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PrezElectHamsandwich 3 points ago +3 / -0

I remember listening to a podcast once that had an interview with a British psychologist who was being canceled because he was offering "conversion therapy". He claimed he was lured into homosexuality in his teens and lived the lifestyle for a while, but eventually got thoroughly disgusted with it and wanted out.

He claims he's been able to cure himself and he is now married to a woman and offering therapy to people who want to do the same (strictly voluntary, he won't accept clients who are being pressured to go), but the rainbow mafia was trying unperson him and close down his business for such unspeakable heresy against their gospel of being born gay.

Sorry, I don't recall the name, but perhaps you'll be able to google him with some of these details.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

thanks this was similar to something I saw but can't remember where I found it.

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PrezElectHamsandwich 1 point ago +1 / -0

Yes, the point was mainly to give you hope that what you want IS possible, it’s been done before, so don’t give up hope.

However, I can tell you from my own experience in battle demons that you’re gonna want to buckle up and prepare for a rough time, because these suckers don’t tend to go quietly into the night.

You must want to decide firmly, once and for all, to be done with your sinful past and seek the Kingdom of God with all your heart, soul, and might. Be like Lot when he left Sodom & Gomhorra — you gotta keep walking forward and never look back.

“And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.” — ‭‭Matthew‬ ‭5:30‬ ‭

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faithfulserf [S] 2 points ago +2 / -0

thanks bro

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PrezElectHamsandwich 1 point ago +1 / -0

You're welcome. Best of luck and may Christ be with you.

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inb4civilwar 2 points ago +2 / -0

I got aids just from reading that.

All day I think about buttfucking, hello nazi message board.

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PrezElectHamsandwich 2 points ago +2 / -0

I spit out my drink reading that, I demand restitution.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

what

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inb4civilwar 1 point ago +1 / -0

(teleports behind you) listen kid, nothing personal, but you cant be talking about buttfucking on a White Nationalist message board. Even if you think about it all day every day, and draw penises constantly.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

just report me then fuckin wierdo

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BillboDickens 1 point ago +1 / -0

Here's what you do, be a civilized human and use something that separates us from the animals: willpower and rationale (intellect).

Willpower : instead of thinking about some gay shit, instead when your mind goes there, you do pushups, or some other exercise, go to the gym, go hiking, biking, etc. Pick up a new hobby, or practice an existing one that betters yourself. Once you start filling the void of idle thoughts with things that make you productive, healthier or acquire a new skill set, you'll start think about those things, how to get better at them and not how the gayness creeps in to your idle mind.

Idle hands are the devil's workshop.

Rationale: this has obviously created an internal and moral conflict for you. This moral conflict isn't from the secular world; it's engrained in your mind and soul. Ask yourself - Do you want to live a life where you'll constantly be battling the ensuing depression from conviction? Would you like to resolve it? Do you want a family, and real companionship? Do you want children? Do you believe in God? If not, why? What do others find in God, and does it help them resolve their issues? Could this also help you?

Ultimately, you want to find peace from this gayness and move past it. Good luck to you.

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faithfulserf [S] 0 points ago +0 / -0

I try to be more active. It's quite limiting as I live with my parents and they are still wary of the super ultra deadly coronabirus that has been comitting the second holocaust. I'll have to move out to quit good and proper.

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GloboShlomo 1 point ago +1 / -0

Just don't do it, ignore it

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

oh ok

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Birmig 1 point ago +1 / -0

Recently a few people have been speculating that homosexuality might be due to parasite. So Ivermectin would help in that regard.

Also, if you have been a sex/porn addict, try support groups.

Most people nowadays are overstimulated and are on dopamine high. For one day, don't use technology. Don't eat carbohydrate. Don't drink coffee. Don't do anything stimulating. Then you can do that for an hour or so everyday and do other "fasting" day as needed.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

i havent tried a dopamine fast however I have a plan that involves abstaining from consuming.

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wehrmacht 1 point ago +1 / -0

If you're gay at least try to live out in celibacy and also try nofap for a very extended period of time (like 3 years)

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christianknight 1 point ago +1 / -0

Porn does not create homosexual urges. Awkward messed up hormones during puberty can however. If you understand that homosexuality is abnormal, over time it will correct itself.

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faithfulserf [S] 1 point ago +1 / -0

I messed up my hormones. Details in the replies to AmericanMonarchist2