So i've done some bad things, said some terrible things not just here but real life recently. Firstly i want to apologise for everything. I want to thank the people who run this site for giving me a last chance, for unbanning me. I was banned several times, the last time permanently, and i think i am one of a very privileged few to be granted an unbanning from those circumstances. I don't know if you remember but i wrote stupid shit here back then. What harm does it do. Quite a lot. But, fortunately for me, i haven't done anything other than say and type stupid shit on the internet. I am willing to apologise and i will always regret the things i have posted here when i was drunk. I will always regret what i have done in real life as a result of my drinking, which is far worse. But all this has only made me realise i need a place i can peg real morals and just realism to. I am not the best out there, however, i believe in better, and what more summons up this site? Hope, strength, and will. That is really what is lacking in this world. All this talk everywhere, but none of hope, strength, and will, the only three things that has kept us going over the many tens of thousands of years. That is what is fracturing things. But i want to pay you all back for this. I think you all know me, and my horrific visualizations i have come up with under the influence. But no matter what i say, in the past, it's all in the past. I will make no promises. Once an alcoholic always an alcoholic. You lot have always helped me when i was there and i want to help you, with this at least. I am here. I am healthy. Going without ever knowing the fate of someone can be hard. Especially hard in this site, because we aren't just anyone. We are all special. If you are here, from your own volition, from your own beliefs, not from a raid, not from an attack, you are one of the few who deserve intelligence and used it. That's what splits us from the rest. That and forgiveness. Forgiveness is everything. But forget all that. I'm here now, with you all. And i am so grateful, because i've never needed it so much. Solidarity can save all. That's what humanity is. If anything, if there's anything i leave you with, it's that i am alive and healthy, and that closure can mean so much.